from 98.6by Ronald Sukenick
Does it hurt he says.
I don't care do whatever you want to me she wants to be destroyed. She wants to be torn apart and completely helpless and at the mercy of. That's the way she thinks of it at the mercy of. She wants to go all the way back to animals and past animals to things. She wants to go back to her thing nature and be part of the rest of the world for once in her thingness a thing among things. She wants to die what a relief it's a special kind of death it feels like shitting in reverse no more fighting off all the deadness in the world letting it in letting it in oh god she didn't know she could get this excited like completely giving in he's in he's all the way in he's so far in all the way up into her guts she feels completely owned she wants to eat his shit. He's furious but it's a cold fury. He hates her guts he wants to turn her into an animal into a thing. When she starts moving up and around he wants to stop her he wants her inanimate. He wants to turn himself into a thing a club a gun it's a terrific tight fit sort of opening out at the end he pulls her up thrusts himself further into her belly he wants to destroy her secret her innerness he wants to turn her inside out depersonalize her it's the claims of her personality he can't bear that make him furious. It won't work. Not unless he wants to kill her. She's moving up and around and down he tries to stop her he doesn't want to come he wants to be in control he's going to come he can't stop it he doesn't stop it he hears her cry he comes like a tommy gun. Next thing you know they're embracing one another and smiling. For some reason she chooses that moment to tell him a story about Tommy Angel her biker boyfriend. Once a guy Tommy's riding with gets into an accident. He winds up in a ditch screaming with pain. Tommy can't stand it. So he picks up a rock and kills him. That's the story.